Last Updated on November 15, 2024

So I decided to change the direction of my blog make it more personal. Make more about my day-to-day activities and the things I did and realized as well as learned. These days I spent a lot of time driving around Connecticut. That in fact is what I did today. I am also taking two college courses psychology and composition 101. Today I had composition. I’m taking the class online Today the teacher talked a little bit and then she had us watch a short video of a drama about a lady that supposedly killed somebody and they were trying to figure out where it was her or not. We have to write a five-page essay on it. I really don’t like writing essays. I always feel like it’s too long and nobody reads it except  the teacher. Maybe I’ll post it on here when I’m done with it. 

While I was driving around I thought about what I wanted to do with my life. I realized that I spent a lot of time chasing money because I thought it would make my parents love me. I really don’t care for money much. It doesn’t make me happy. So I decided to focus more on making friends hanging out. Having fun more instead of chasing different business ventures that really never take off.

While I was driving around. I also listend to music. I’ve spent most of the time listening to gangster rap and I was listening to Wu-Tang clan. Some of the songs are pretty good my favorite ones are people say and my only one. Now before I go to sleep I listend to a guided meditation about your soul’s purpose. That was pretty cool. You can find guided meditations on YouTube. During the guided meditation I realized that I was trying to help people that couldn’t be helped. They are what I call Frozen. They’re not ready for help. You can never help them no matter how hard you try. It is impossible now I know that no more wasting time.

I also realized I’m meant to help people that want help on this blog and my YouTube channel. I also had an insight that the hard part of my life is over. I always felt that I was meant to endure the hardest life possible in this lifetime. I consider myself a Buddhist. I felt like the hard part is now over because I experienced the hardest life possible already. So I will appreciate life more now. I feel like things are going to change now and get better. I’m going to find a good job and a good woman and start enjoying life more. That is a plus. I’m going to sleep now. Goodbye and take care.